When Sweet Husband told me he was setting up a site for me to blog, I shrugged and said okay. How hard can it be? I post on Facebook. Pin on Pinterest. What is one more social media outlet? Apparently for me it is very hard, it has been 19 months since my last post. HA !
The last two years we have had a lot going on. Built and moved into our home. Husband switched jobs. I started working part time as a substitute teacher. Traveled for two months, six thousand miles, and homeschooled our kids while seeing amazing places and visiting with family and friends along the way. Many more long weekend trips for family birthdays etc. Basically flying by the seat of our pants.
I have come to a point that I need to have a plan. A purpose. A goal.
In other words…I need to get my shit together.
I will say I have a very high opinion of myself. Very high confidence level. It took me awhile to realize that during the last year I have let myself go. The muscles that were tight on my back are now rolls. I get winded on hikes. I have gained twenty pounds. I blamed mid 40s hormones. I blamed looking at too much food late at night on Pinterest and then snacking. I blamed wearing leggings and yoga pants on a regular basis. When I ATTEMPTED to “get dressed in real clothes”….to slip into my always loose skinny jeans the buttons laughed at me. In the end I have to blame the face in the mirror.
I know what to do and I know how to do it. I could teach a course in health, fitness, and exercise. This is what brings me back to this blog. I need to reverse the negative. I know that food and exercise have a huge effect on me. When my diet/exercise sucks. I suck. Plain and simple I SUCK. I am grouchy, tired, lazy, I snap at my family, my mood swings are nice mommy to scary mommy. I just do not care. This is actually not true. I do care. After I go “a little” crazy…I go in our room and I cry. Then I grab a bag of chips, lay in bed and read a crap novel. Because it makes me feel better….for a few minutes.
So… (I use the word “so” a lot) I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately. What do I want? Who do I want to be? How do I get there?
I read a super cute happy cozy book. The Little Book of Hygge – Danish Secrets to Happy Living This book was my lightbulb moment. Small little changes that bring your joy. REAL. QUALITY.JOY. I went out and bought a bunch of candles. I started using my essential oils again. Talked to my bestie and set up our bi-weekly family dinners. Took Facebook off my phone. These little steps have put me on the path to renewal.
Last night I read another book. Food Freedom Forever We have been lovers of the Paleo/Primal lifestyle for YEARS. Most of our main meals still follow this way of life. It is just adding too many cocktails, chips and salsa, desserts, etc…to the main meals that has made us drop off the wagon. I skimmed most of the book as I know the basics. What I found to be very helpful was reconnecting with the WHY. If you really want a cupcake. Have a cupcake. Before you eat it ask yourself. WHY !?? If you cannot come up with a good reason or if you know the consequence of eating the cupcake outweighs the momentary bliss. Say no. Have it another day, when you can enjoy it. Really want it. After finishing this book. I grabbed a trusty half used spiral notebook and started to make MY plan ! MINE MINE MINE. Lick the pork chop mine. Yes, our family will also join me in the journey, but for the now…this is for ME. I made a schedule for my day to include: sleep , morning routine (drink water before coffee, stretch, a back injury has limited my flexibility, I want it back), meal prep/planning, chores (use a timer to get ‘er done), ONLY CONTROL WHAT I CAN CONTROL (MY sleep, MY exercise, MY environment, MY relationships, MY mental state, MY stress – Eliminate, Reduce, Cope (find MY triggers).
Our family has made some HUGE decisions, which will bring HUGE changes to our little lives and to be successful I need to be at my best. Let the journey begin.
- We are homeschooling our children next year. We are all SO EXCITED for the challenge and adventures to come.
- Healthy lifestyle. In our diet. In our daily life. In our vacations. In everything we do.
- Projects. I have many pinned. Now to make a list and actually do them. Make this house the Hygge home we want it to be.
I cannot wait to share our progress and I am sure our challenges in navigating our changes.